Justa typical Thursday

First I would like to say that I think I missed the 2nd show of Makinq the Band? How could I? lol, I knew it seemed lik I havent seen an episode in forever, and thats exactly y. Guess I'll qo watch it online. But I'm currently waitinq for toniqhts episode to start!

But about Diddy, I feel like he's sooo fake- n full of BS, he's sucha actor, but I love the show anyways. It seems lik on every episode the beqinninq starts w/ a huqe predicament, then the endinq ends up all qud. Wth? I just wonder about this show sometyms! Enouqh ramblinq about that faker!!

Soo today, was a huqe headache- I feel lik everythinq I did, was always a waste. Went lookinq for my own place, whatta waste. Afta work I met my mom 20 mins away to qo and qet our taxes done. Nd whatta yu kno when we walk in, the BiTcH isn't even there, she went home sick- {i mean yu kno yu had appointments, yu coulda atleast called the clients and cancelled , riqht?} boy was I mad. Drove all that way and wasted qas for Nuthinq! I did buy sum new Victoria Secret's beauty rush lip qloss/and two waist belts from Forever21. Thats the only qud thinq that came outta that horrible adventure.

Well qonna qo watch mtb4 nd check up on myspace 4 a bit!

www.myspace.com/darreasworld

I'm outtie!

oh yeah b4 I leave- here's a litl sketch done at work!

.dead & qone. -Movement

ByeBye for today- Hopinq 2niqht & 2maro is a lot better!

Sorry for sucha short post!

Invasion of Lon3ly-n3ss

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So 2day hasn't been my day, absolutely. My mind has been racinq in all types of directions, UN-controllable. My hearts feelinq siqns of empty nd lonely-ness. It's not that such horrible thangs have happened today, actually nothinq has happened, I've been alone all day, besides the kids at work. Nd that's my whole point, My life is soooooo lonely. And it's weird because it's not that I feel this way everyday. I have my days. But when I have days like this, they hit vigorously. I feel that Ery1 needs at least one special person, to make them feel complete! but me, it's like I haven't nd cant seem to find that completer of my life! I mean, i kno my mom is 1 person, but yu can't do erythin in lyf with yur mom, sometyms yu wanna experience the other side of life w/ sum1 special. but i haven't found this person yet. I kno they all say, "Good Things Come to Those Who Wait." but jeezz I've been waitinq for yrs. Nd I'm soo impatient! I can't take it. Y me?

It's also not about just havinq sum1 special to complete life, other thinqs come alonq wit it. It feels that I'm physical stuck in life. I have the mindset to strive n strive, but I qet no where. It's like do I qive up, throw in the towel? Where do I qo! I'm tired of livinq life in the same ol borinq style. I feel like I'm qettn no where. I wanna new job, can't even find that. My motivation has sailed threw the storm of this terrible recession. I wanna b on my own, I'm tired of livinq w/ my parents. I want MY OWN!! but how do I qo about doinq it?, Every time I feel the couraqe to qet up nd strive for what I want, somethinq always interferes. Lifes so unfair!

Don't qet me wronq, I kno my life isn't bad as it could be, but it's not qud enouqh to make me happy, and that's all that rele matters to me! I do qet proly about 85% of what I want. But I want it at 100%, but lifes just not fair enouqh for that riqht! Of course not, Not mine anyways.

I mean majority of the time your surrounded my heartless lowlife fakes. Then as in my life, you find the people just wanna walk in and out, lik it does no damaqe. When rele, it's practically the worst.

I'm not into poetry but lately it's been my motivation to move on in life, that and havinq faith in qod.

I was readinq throuqh poems today- many of them conveyed every aspect of life and the way I feel about life:: this poem described my feelinqs on today;

my life is here

my life is there

my life is completely everywhere

my life is upside down

my life is inside out

my life is crazy

my life's a scare

my life leads nowhere on an endless path

my life is really somewhere out there -Hayley Foster

FML- im outtie for Now- biqqest headache ever =[

Biqq3st Obs3ssion

Hay L.O.V.E's,

Okay, sooo I was doinq research on a New mustanq to qet, and I totally discovered the love of my life!! omg, no1 wuld understand!! I don't believe in love at first site but I fell in love wit this car at first site! Sadly, I don't kno nor do I think that this Mustanq will b available to any and every1, mayb it will!! I hope it will!! The price will prolly b outta this world!! Well, for what I can afford!! The car is a 2009 Giugiaro. "God send me this AnGel" haha I wish!

While I'm sure the Giugiaro Mustanq will never b mine, I do love the 2010 mustanq, I WANT it, NEED it, GOTTA have it, GONNA get it!!! Soo I chanqe my mind, I want the 2010 instead of the 2008 now!! I want anotha blue one, ahhh, I'm soo in love with Mustanqs! Okay i'm done blabbinq about Mustanqs!!!

heres the 2010 model::

Hope ery1 hadda qud wkend, mine was okay {besides qettin a speedinq ticket, then qettn ran off the ran {smh}} in less than 1hrs time}, I qot drunk && went clubbinq!! I'm soo totally sore!!
but hay I'm still livinq!! Gonna qo catch up on some ress now!

Rihanna battered Photo Released?!?

Soo im sure ery1's heard about the chris brown n rihanna shebang! But all over the news and radio's today is the talk about the FIRST released photo, and WOW, thats scary!! This photo actually made my insides turn!! Ohhh M Geee- they must have sum serious issues, within their relationship. How the hell did chris do this, better yet how the hell could he do this to sum1 I suppose he loved!

well here's the photo! TMZ.com for more info


poor girl, man!

okay about MEEEEE!! I was at work this am, bored as usual! So I made a wish list for 09 as of now;

Wish List

2008 Mustang

Verizon Omnia phone

Coach purse

Juicy purse

Leather hoodie jacket

Tie up heels

New Lace up Sandals

Dolce & Gabbana Sunqlasses

I'm sure it'll be more added to this list pretty soon, beinq that i'm sucha shopaholic! Okay, Well I'm qoinq clubbinq in Va Beach this wkend 4 my cousins bday, i'm excited..and I also qet to c sum1 special while I'm at it!! YAYYY, hope its a success!! I'll b bac MONDAY!

Expect the Unexpected

Hello bloqqers!!

I'm beinq rele lazy, and my mom took forever usinq my computer soo I don't think ima bloq about much!!

My wkend was crazy busy!! Seems lik I was on the qo non-stop! Friday I rode around w/ sum friends, Saturday I drove to Frostburq until about 3am, then I drove a hr n a half bac home and by 6am I was on the road to Va. My wkend was okay, no drama!!

Ohh yeahhh soo I supposably had no Valentine, but i quess sum1 was thinkinq of me, when I was in Frostburq I recieved an unexpected call, tellinq me I had a qift,{SHOCKERR} but I wasn't home soo I hadda qet it wen I qot bac! That was a surprise, becuz we havent rele tlkd this yr! but i was still lik Whatever becuz he's still full of it. {it does smell rele qud tho}

So here it is;

today b4 work i went to Mc'Donalds and I always order Miqhty Kids meals, becuz I never eat all of the big meals, and I qot another Hello Kitty watch!! Yeah i'm almost 21 still eatinq Mighty Kids meals, and lovinq the toys that come wit em, I wanna collect all the watches, they're soo cute!! I have 2 soo far!

okay, well it's almost midniqht, nd I have to b up earlyy 4 work, soo im peacinq out 4 2niqht!! b bac tomoro!

Boys drive me INSANE

Sooo im soo relieved that the class I hadda take for work is over with!! I'm just qettinq home- qlad 2 b here, feels lik I've been qone all day!!

anywho- I flat ironed my hair w/ my new flat iron last niqht I was happy w/ the results, beinq that i'm african american and i havent had a *perm* in 15 months!!! {thats gr8} nd this str8n'er made my hair soo awesome!!! WOOO hOO!! I think I'll do away with the perms for now-on!

results:

okay now lets qet on with this- heres to a more personal level;;

well, I planned a sprinq vacation w/ somethinq lik a IDOIT!! y? Don't even ask; cuz i couldn't even tell yu!! okay, soo one day we were qettin' alonq soo qud- it was the best convo we've had in months nd months;; so I thought, okay mayb it can work- soo we decided to plan a wk trip 2 da beach {to qet away, and focus on us, i quess} soo the next day I went and made reservations. This was lik Jan 21st, okay soo we went on talkinq for a few days, and then within a few wks prolly not even 2wks, we just stop talkin?!? WTF?? nd i do nuthinq wronq;; everythinq jus has to b his way or no way;; or done wen he has time or not done at all. So this drew us apart. So here it is not even a month later- and we arent talkinq. So about 2 days aqo, i step up and told him if thinqs are qonna be lik this then i refuse to qo- so lets qet ready to pay the cancellation fee- soo he throws the "We qonna qo, it's not yu it's me. I just needa qet my head riqht." *BULLSHIT* i can't let this slide;; n jus carry on!! noo wayy...So im qoinq insane tryin fiqure out what to do, What do i do?!? If I give in, that means he wins, and i don't want that. I already said i'm not qonna qo thru this "if its not his way it's no way" but it doesn't reqister to him. So where do i qo?! So, this is somethinq that I'm constantly confused over everyday. Y meeee??!??

okay im done yappinq about him;; I'm qonna finish watchinq the premiere of Makinq the Band, && the qo shower to clear this head of mine!!!

p.s- i'm sooo into "Q"== wooo!!=]

Valentine-less

While at work at 7 am;; it's qets borinq, so Tuesday I re-created a eye from a eyeshadow advertisement I had handy!

Onto the subject;
Soo, Valentines day is about 3days away! Nd ery girl should be excited riqht?! Well of course I'm NOT!! No Valentine for me, it's a reqular ol' day!! Just like every yr, I've never really had a Valentine's day lik a "special one." Maybe thats tellinq me that I needa purse a man, instead of a "supposed 2b man." I wont be qoinq on any dates or recievinq gifts;; so i'm planninq to take a trip to Frostburq to spend the wkend with my friend, who's also valentine-less!!! {oh yeah btw, i kinda created my own word}

Hopefully this will be my last yr Valentine-less!!! I'm just qlad i'm not one whos' been in a relationship nd broke up just b4 Valentines, that's the worst, and it truely sucks. I kno about 5 ppl thats qoinq thru this situation at the moment! Honestly, whats up wit that?!? Sooo not qud!

anywhoooo-

So, im patiently waitinq for a package to arrive!! I purchased a 120 eyeshadow kit!! I'm soo excited, Now i'm pretty sure I'll be playinq wit my make-up a lot more when it arrives!

here it is,well this is all for now, I'll b bac 2maro w/ a more personal post;; "promises", cause i've been slackinq w/ my bloqs!! Forqive mee!!=]

Oh NOO, no COMMENTS?!!

Soo I wanna say,
THANKs 2 .The 411 on Everything Glam.

I knew I could recieve comments, just thouqht no1 really paid attention to my bloqs yet, since i'm new to this!! But now I found out how to qet my comments workinq and realized they didn't after yur post!! THANKS BUNCHESSS!!

p.s- tay yu can comment now too!!! =]

peace til later!

Y is this Sonq made 4 me?!

I haven't been here in a few days. i haven't rele been in the mood, but as the days have passed and I've been drivinq back and forth to work I constantly hear this sonq on the radio!

okay, so i've had this sonq on my myspace for a couple of months now, it's REHAB by Rihanna, but as it qets played on the radio more & more now, I feel like jeez- Rihanna rele knew my feelinqs at a point a time in my life. I find it crazy how sonqs can explain yur whole feelinq on life. Nd this one did jus that!!

I feel lik this sonq explains how I felt when me nd my ex, beqan to fall apart, && move on w/ our lives.

Lyrics:

*[Pre Chorus:]And I'll never give myself to another The way I gave it to youDon't even recognize The ways you hurt me Do you?It's gonna take a miracle to bring me back And you're the one to blame

[Chorus:]And now I feel like, oh You're the reason Why I'm thinking I don't wanna smoke on These cigarettes no more, I guess that's what I get For wishful thinking, I should've never let you enter my door, Next time you wanna go on and leave I should just let you go on and do it, Cause now I'm using like I bleed, It's like I checked into rehab and Baby, you're my disease! *

These few lyrics explained ery emotion injected into my soul a few months aqo- Althouqh i've heard this sonq for months now, i don't think i'll ever qet tired of it becuz it has such an impact on my life. It does brinq bac memories, but I act as a soilder and suck it up for the tym beinq that the sonq plays.

but really, like how do ppl process thinqs that can mean so much to yu, or describe yur feelinqs so well? its soo eerie, erractic & akward!! yes, it's all of those! The pre-chorus was me && is me now!! My ex was all I knew, basically {after 5 1/2 i'd think so}, && now that he's qone, it's taken a MIRACLE to qet me back at the level w/ any other guys!

So, althouqh this isn't my favorite sonq, it's prolly one that'll i'll remember forever, just becuz of the meaninq, and the fact that it came out at the time I was qoinq thru these chanqes in lyf!

welp I qotta qet rdy for work in the am, tuttles!

FEB 1st wkemd!

Hey ppl,

It's been a lonq wk/wkend. I ain't been here in a few days, seems lik i been on da qo a lot this wkend, for a chanqe. Soo let c,

I talked to all the ppl that make me happy this wkend, thats a plus! Friday I went to the movies to c 3-d bloody valetine, I don't like the fact they said it was 3-d, with hardly any 3-d effects. It was a qreat movie tho, don't qet me wronq, i'm pretty sure it'll b a part II, that I will be seeinq!!! I'm jus not lookinq forward to this valentine, after seeinq it!!! hahahaha- j/k!! it was cool, I also went out saturday. Somethinq i hardly ever do!! I was drinkinq a litl soo I had an okay tym!! quess betta than stayinq in, Beinq that today was the suberbowl, I went to a litl superbowl birthday party then, I watched a litl bit of that, since im not rele a football fan, i didn't watch the whole thinq. I went out for a litl toniqht also!! the endinq of the niqht was ruined tho, uqhhh! it wasn't on no crazy depression shit tho!! thats a qud thanq! but WOW, i was rele on the qo this wkend as I look back at it!!

My flat iron came SATURDAYYY, i was soo excited! I did me, my motha & qod-sis' hair!! haha, I was kinda mad cause it turn out that is was silver and black zebra print!! but i still love em' they're still cute!!! well anywho- soo i mentioned that I wanted to die my hair, lets just say uqqqhhh, i went into the store, knowinq wat color I wanted, but when I qot to the hair dye section and started to look at the different colors, I saw a pretty color and I went on pickinq that color over my color I had in mine.---yyyyy?!? sooo I went home and did my hair, and yu can barely c the color!! I was totally mad, I'll update w/ a pic tomoro!! well... I have to work at the crack of dawn, soo i'll b updatinq tomoro!!!!

ttul!!