Shopaholic

My eyes for church;; =]

It was sooo nice out today!! I went to church, came home went for a wlk w/ the fam, then went out to some store..& boy did I realize that....

I'ma real Shopaholic! I can't save money 4 my life!

All I did this wkend was buy stuff wth?!? I needa stop qoinq in stores period, supposedly just lookinq, but I always end up buyinq somethin! Me and my sis, mom, nephew n qod-sis went to sum stores today, i didn't wanna spend any money but i did anyway.

I qot sum shoes!! I was plannin to wear them for my 21st bday, but when I qot home i realized, they stand out enouqh, soo I'm qonna save em' for another event, and buy more for my 21st!! I think they're too close to my skin color!! I still lik em' tho!

oh yeah- i did my toes n zebra print!!! Im qonna need to re-do them soon!

here r da 2 thanqs I picked up from ross on Friday!! i didn't photograph my 3 shirts from C/R they're packed n my baq for this wkend {already} =]

This is the 1 litl shirt I purchased from the mall I wasted my tym qoinq to Saturday!

Welp- i believe dinner is rdy and I'm starvinq, soo I b bac 2maro

adios!

Nothinq ever qoes Riqht

Okay so 2day was borinq for no freakin' reason! I was supposed to qo chill in va w/ S.O.S well thanqs qot screwed up with that, then I was qonna qo clubbn in Va beach, but we fiqured we might waste our tym, nd it's a lot of drivinq, for poor litl ol me!! Soo i ended up stayin home- and supposedly qoinq shoppin! So i searched for malls to qo to, y did we pick the worst freakn mall out of the bunch??, i kno it had to be, i mean it looked lika flea market uqh!! I qot all dressed, did my hair, and make-up for nooooo reason!! to end up back home w/ one freakn shirt!!! I did buy my nephew & qod-dauqhter somethinq also!! but man, was it the worst! Yesterday I did do a litl shoppinq at C/R and Ross!! Ross has the cutest classy clothes for cheap!! I qot quite a bit, and didn't spend much at all!! Would take pics to show what I qot, but I'm beinq a bit to lazy!

my make-up & hair for the day:

So beinq that this wkend sucked, next wkend I will b totally drunk and actually do somethinq!! I'm qoin to va neways, for my qod-dauqhter's 1st yrs bday party, nd I think we're qonna head to va beach afterwards!!

So i'm qonna qo {blow my mind} now, then head to bed!! this day needs 2 b over with! {sigh}

Keri Hilson*

Okay So did any1 watch Rip the RunWay on BET?,

Well I missed the premiere, but I watched it toniqht. Nd boy do I love Keri Hilson!! She's my girl!! Her style is all dat!! I'm soo in love! I love the way she freakn' dresses!! nd She can rele sinq/perform, unlik some other celebs i kno. Not callin' any names. She can also dance her butt off!!! I jus love the way she performs and she makes those faces lik shes top shit, Which I think she one of the hottest, so I quess she has it lik that!! I loved her performance outfit! {which is to the left}...Totally hot!!

okay, well there's nothinq rele new, don't rele have any qud info..so i'm outtie for toniqht!!!

Screwed bloq

What the heck is up with my bloq!! Nuthinq will show up, soo frustratinq!! Nd i soo wanna chanqe this template, but I wanna create my own.

Does ne1 have ne useful sites/source??

I'd appreciate it bunchess!!!

Winter Storms- yayy!

Hola my bloqqers,

Haven't been here in a few days. Nothinqs rele new!! Wkend was okay- I went clubbn' wit the fam! Had fun!

-a quick snap shot b4 we left!

Soo we had a winter storm today here n Maryland!! Heck yahh!! Only bad part is they tried to keep schools open and beinq that I work at a school, we still hadda work, but I drive a freakn MUSTANG, hello people, roads are covered, how do yu expect me to drive a Mustanq in that?! They usually cancel school for a litl snow on sidewalks and litl simple stuff, but today they didn't, wth?!? hello, qet it toqether, plz!! I'm not killinq my self for no1. I watched the news from 5;40am to about 8...they were still rantinq about how bad it was and dont qo out unless yu absolutely have to. My dad even went out and tested my car, nd he was slippin & slidin. So, I call my supervisor and she tells me dont worry about comin in until they clear the roads, soo I sat and waited and waited, no trucks still never came throuqh my neiqhborhood, soo finally at 8:15 I qet a call n schools were finally closed!! I mean Duhh they shoulda been closed, 3 hrs aqo! now i woulda really been pissed if i rele hadda qo out, and then they finally decide to cancel it, riskinq my freakinq life for nothinq!

so here's what it looked like!

adios until 2maro!

Justa typical Thursday

First I would like to say that I think I missed the 2nd show of Makinq the Band? How could I? lol, I knew it seemed lik I havent seen an episode in forever, and thats exactly y. Guess I'll qo watch it online. But I'm currently waitinq for toniqhts episode to start!

But about Diddy, I feel like he's sooo fake- n full of BS, he's sucha actor, but I love the show anyways. It seems lik on every episode the beqinninq starts w/ a huqe predicament, then the endinq ends up all qud. Wth? I just wonder about this show sometyms! Enouqh ramblinq about that faker!!

Soo today, was a huqe headache- I feel lik everythinq I did, was always a waste. Went lookinq for my own place, whatta waste. Afta work I met my mom 20 mins away to qo and qet our taxes done. Nd whatta yu kno when we walk in, the BiTcH isn't even there, she went home sick- {i mean yu kno yu had appointments, yu coulda atleast called the clients and cancelled , riqht?} boy was I mad. Drove all that way and wasted qas for Nuthinq! I did buy sum new Victoria Secret's beauty rush lip qloss/and two waist belts from Forever21. Thats the only qud thinq that came outta that horrible adventure.

Well qonna qo watch mtb4 nd check up on myspace 4 a bit!

www.myspace.com/darreasworld

I'm outtie!

oh yeah b4 I leave- here's a litl sketch done at work!

.dead & qone. -Movement

ByeBye for today- Hopinq 2niqht & 2maro is a lot better!

Sorry for sucha short post!

Invasion of Lon3ly-n3ss

picture- grenninggallery.com

So 2day hasn't been my day, absolutely. My mind has been racinq in all types of directions, UN-controllable. My hearts feelinq siqns of empty nd lonely-ness. It's not that such horrible thangs have happened today, actually nothinq has happened, I've been alone all day, besides the kids at work. Nd that's my whole point, My life is soooooo lonely. And it's weird because it's not that I feel this way everyday. I have my days. But when I have days like this, they hit vigorously. I feel that Ery1 needs at least one special person, to make them feel complete! but me, it's like I haven't nd cant seem to find that completer of my life! I mean, i kno my mom is 1 person, but yu can't do erythin in lyf with yur mom, sometyms yu wanna experience the other side of life w/ sum1 special. but i haven't found this person yet. I kno they all say, "Good Things Come to Those Who Wait." but jeezz I've been waitinq for yrs. Nd I'm soo impatient! I can't take it. Y me?

It's also not about just havinq sum1 special to complete life, other thinqs come alonq wit it. It feels that I'm physical stuck in life. I have the mindset to strive n strive, but I qet no where. It's like do I qive up, throw in the towel? Where do I qo! I'm tired of livinq life in the same ol borinq style. I feel like I'm qettn no where. I wanna new job, can't even find that. My motivation has sailed threw the storm of this terrible recession. I wanna b on my own, I'm tired of livinq w/ my parents. I want MY OWN!! but how do I qo about doinq it?, Every time I feel the couraqe to qet up nd strive for what I want, somethinq always interferes. Lifes so unfair!

Don't qet me wronq, I kno my life isn't bad as it could be, but it's not qud enouqh to make me happy, and that's all that rele matters to me! I do qet proly about 85% of what I want. But I want it at 100%, but lifes just not fair enouqh for that riqht! Of course not, Not mine anyways.

I mean majority of the time your surrounded my heartless lowlife fakes. Then as in my life, you find the people just wanna walk in and out, lik it does no damaqe. When rele, it's practically the worst.

I'm not into poetry but lately it's been my motivation to move on in life, that and havinq faith in qod.

I was readinq throuqh poems today- many of them conveyed every aspect of life and the way I feel about life:: this poem described my feelinqs on today;

my life is here

my life is there

my life is completely everywhere

my life is upside down

my life is inside out

my life is crazy

my life's a scare

my life leads nowhere on an endless path

my life is really somewhere out there -Hayley Foster

FML- im outtie for Now- biqqest headache ever =[

Biqq3st Obs3ssion

Hay L.O.V.E's,

Okay, sooo I was doinq research on a New mustanq to qet, and I totally discovered the love of my life!! omg, no1 wuld understand!! I don't believe in love at first site but I fell in love wit this car at first site! Sadly, I don't kno nor do I think that this Mustanq will b available to any and every1, mayb it will!! I hope it will!! The price will prolly b outta this world!! Well, for what I can afford!! The car is a 2009 Giugiaro. "God send me this AnGel" haha I wish!

While I'm sure the Giugiaro Mustanq will never b mine, I do love the 2010 mustanq, I WANT it, NEED it, GOTTA have it, GONNA get it!!! Soo I chanqe my mind, I want the 2010 instead of the 2008 now!! I want anotha blue one, ahhh, I'm soo in love with Mustanqs! Okay i'm done blabbinq about Mustanqs!!!

heres the 2010 model::

Hope ery1 hadda qud wkend, mine was okay {besides qettin a speedinq ticket, then qettn ran off the ran {smh}} in less than 1hrs time}, I qot drunk && went clubbinq!! I'm soo totally sore!!
but hay I'm still livinq!! Gonna qo catch up on some ress now!

Rihanna battered Photo Released?!?

Soo im sure ery1's heard about the chris brown n rihanna shebang! But all over the news and radio's today is the talk about the FIRST released photo, and WOW, thats scary!! This photo actually made my insides turn!! Ohhh M Geee- they must have sum serious issues, within their relationship. How the hell did chris do this, better yet how the hell could he do this to sum1 I suppose he loved!

well here's the photo! TMZ.com for more info


poor girl, man!

okay about MEEEEE!! I was at work this am, bored as usual! So I made a wish list for 09 as of now;

Wish List

2008 Mustang

Verizon Omnia phone

Coach purse

Juicy purse

Leather hoodie jacket

Tie up heels

New Lace up Sandals

Dolce & Gabbana Sunqlasses

I'm sure it'll be more added to this list pretty soon, beinq that i'm sucha shopaholic! Okay, Well I'm qoinq clubbinq in Va Beach this wkend 4 my cousins bday, i'm excited..and I also qet to c sum1 special while I'm at it!! YAYYY, hope its a success!! I'll b bac MONDAY!

Expect the Unexpected

Hello bloqqers!!

I'm beinq rele lazy, and my mom took forever usinq my computer soo I don't think ima bloq about much!!

My wkend was crazy busy!! Seems lik I was on the qo non-stop! Friday I rode around w/ sum friends, Saturday I drove to Frostburq until about 3am, then I drove a hr n a half bac home and by 6am I was on the road to Va. My wkend was okay, no drama!!

Ohh yeahhh soo I supposably had no Valentine, but i quess sum1 was thinkinq of me, when I was in Frostburq I recieved an unexpected call, tellinq me I had a qift,{SHOCKERR} but I wasn't home soo I hadda qet it wen I qot bac! That was a surprise, becuz we havent rele tlkd this yr! but i was still lik Whatever becuz he's still full of it. {it does smell rele qud tho}

So here it is;

today b4 work i went to Mc'Donalds and I always order Miqhty Kids meals, becuz I never eat all of the big meals, and I qot another Hello Kitty watch!! Yeah i'm almost 21 still eatinq Mighty Kids meals, and lovinq the toys that come wit em, I wanna collect all the watches, they're soo cute!! I have 2 soo far!

okay, well it's almost midniqht, nd I have to b up earlyy 4 work, soo im peacinq out 4 2niqht!! b bac tomoro!

Boys drive me INSANE

Sooo im soo relieved that the class I hadda take for work is over with!! I'm just qettinq home- qlad 2 b here, feels lik I've been qone all day!!

anywho- I flat ironed my hair w/ my new flat iron last niqht I was happy w/ the results, beinq that i'm african american and i havent had a *perm* in 15 months!!! {thats gr8} nd this str8n'er made my hair soo awesome!!! WOOO hOO!! I think I'll do away with the perms for now-on!

results:

okay now lets qet on with this- heres to a more personal level;;

well, I planned a sprinq vacation w/ somethinq lik a IDOIT!! y? Don't even ask; cuz i couldn't even tell yu!! okay, soo one day we were qettin' alonq soo qud- it was the best convo we've had in months nd months;; so I thought, okay mayb it can work- soo we decided to plan a wk trip 2 da beach {to qet away, and focus on us, i quess} soo the next day I went and made reservations. This was lik Jan 21st, okay soo we went on talkinq for a few days, and then within a few wks prolly not even 2wks, we just stop talkin?!? WTF?? nd i do nuthinq wronq;; everythinq jus has to b his way or no way;; or done wen he has time or not done at all. So this drew us apart. So here it is not even a month later- and we arent talkinq. So about 2 days aqo, i step up and told him if thinqs are qonna be lik this then i refuse to qo- so lets qet ready to pay the cancellation fee- soo he throws the "We qonna qo, it's not yu it's me. I just needa qet my head riqht." *BULLSHIT* i can't let this slide;; n jus carry on!! noo wayy...So im qoinq insane tryin fiqure out what to do, What do i do?!? If I give in, that means he wins, and i don't want that. I already said i'm not qonna qo thru this "if its not his way it's no way" but it doesn't reqister to him. So where do i qo?! So, this is somethinq that I'm constantly confused over everyday. Y meeee??!??

okay im done yappinq about him;; I'm qonna finish watchinq the premiere of Makinq the Band, && the qo shower to clear this head of mine!!!

p.s- i'm sooo into "Q"== wooo!!=]

Valentine-less

While at work at 7 am;; it's qets borinq, so Tuesday I re-created a eye from a eyeshadow advertisement I had handy!

Onto the subject;
Soo, Valentines day is about 3days away! Nd ery girl should be excited riqht?! Well of course I'm NOT!! No Valentine for me, it's a reqular ol' day!! Just like every yr, I've never really had a Valentine's day lik a "special one." Maybe thats tellinq me that I needa purse a man, instead of a "supposed 2b man." I wont be qoinq on any dates or recievinq gifts;; so i'm planninq to take a trip to Frostburq to spend the wkend with my friend, who's also valentine-less!!! {oh yeah btw, i kinda created my own word}

Hopefully this will be my last yr Valentine-less!!! I'm just qlad i'm not one whos' been in a relationship nd broke up just b4 Valentines, that's the worst, and it truely sucks. I kno about 5 ppl thats qoinq thru this situation at the moment! Honestly, whats up wit that?!? Sooo not qud!

anywhoooo-

So, im patiently waitinq for a package to arrive!! I purchased a 120 eyeshadow kit!! I'm soo excited, Now i'm pretty sure I'll be playinq wit my make-up a lot more when it arrives!

here it is,well this is all for now, I'll b bac 2maro w/ a more personal post;; "promises", cause i've been slackinq w/ my bloqs!! Forqive mee!!=]

Oh NOO, no COMMENTS?!!

Soo I wanna say,
THANKs 2 .The 411 on Everything Glam.

I knew I could recieve comments, just thouqht no1 really paid attention to my bloqs yet, since i'm new to this!! But now I found out how to qet my comments workinq and realized they didn't after yur post!! THANKS BUNCHESSS!!

p.s- tay yu can comment now too!!! =]

peace til later!

Y is this Sonq made 4 me?!

I haven't been here in a few days. i haven't rele been in the mood, but as the days have passed and I've been drivinq back and forth to work I constantly hear this sonq on the radio!

okay, so i've had this sonq on my myspace for a couple of months now, it's REHAB by Rihanna, but as it qets played on the radio more & more now, I feel like jeez- Rihanna rele knew my feelinqs at a point a time in my life. I find it crazy how sonqs can explain yur whole feelinq on life. Nd this one did jus that!!

I feel lik this sonq explains how I felt when me nd my ex, beqan to fall apart, && move on w/ our lives.

Lyrics:

*[Pre Chorus:]And I'll never give myself to another The way I gave it to youDon't even recognize The ways you hurt me Do you?It's gonna take a miracle to bring me back And you're the one to blame

[Chorus:]And now I feel like, oh You're the reason Why I'm thinking I don't wanna smoke on These cigarettes no more, I guess that's what I get For wishful thinking, I should've never let you enter my door, Next time you wanna go on and leave I should just let you go on and do it, Cause now I'm using like I bleed, It's like I checked into rehab and Baby, you're my disease! *

These few lyrics explained ery emotion injected into my soul a few months aqo- Althouqh i've heard this sonq for months now, i don't think i'll ever qet tired of it becuz it has such an impact on my life. It does brinq bac memories, but I act as a soilder and suck it up for the tym beinq that the sonq plays.

but really, like how do ppl process thinqs that can mean so much to yu, or describe yur feelinqs so well? its soo eerie, erractic & akward!! yes, it's all of those! The pre-chorus was me && is me now!! My ex was all I knew, basically {after 5 1/2 i'd think so}, && now that he's qone, it's taken a MIRACLE to qet me back at the level w/ any other guys!

So, althouqh this isn't my favorite sonq, it's prolly one that'll i'll remember forever, just becuz of the meaninq, and the fact that it came out at the time I was qoinq thru these chanqes in lyf!

welp I qotta qet rdy for work in the am, tuttles!

FEB 1st wkemd!

Hey ppl,

It's been a lonq wk/wkend. I ain't been here in a few days, seems lik i been on da qo a lot this wkend, for a chanqe. Soo let c,

I talked to all the ppl that make me happy this wkend, thats a plus! Friday I went to the movies to c 3-d bloody valetine, I don't like the fact they said it was 3-d, with hardly any 3-d effects. It was a qreat movie tho, don't qet me wronq, i'm pretty sure it'll b a part II, that I will be seeinq!!! I'm jus not lookinq forward to this valentine, after seeinq it!!! hahahaha- j/k!! it was cool, I also went out saturday. Somethinq i hardly ever do!! I was drinkinq a litl soo I had an okay tym!! quess betta than stayinq in, Beinq that today was the suberbowl, I went to a litl superbowl birthday party then, I watched a litl bit of that, since im not rele a football fan, i didn't watch the whole thinq. I went out for a litl toniqht also!! the endinq of the niqht was ruined tho, uqhhh! it wasn't on no crazy depression shit tho!! thats a qud thanq! but WOW, i was rele on the qo this wkend as I look back at it!!

My flat iron came SATURDAYYY, i was soo excited! I did me, my motha & qod-sis' hair!! haha, I was kinda mad cause it turn out that is was silver and black zebra print!! but i still love em' they're still cute!!! well anywho- soo i mentioned that I wanted to die my hair, lets just say uqqqhhh, i went into the store, knowinq wat color I wanted, but when I qot to the hair dye section and started to look at the different colors, I saw a pretty color and I went on pickinq that color over my color I had in mine.---yyyyy?!? sooo I went home and did my hair, and yu can barely c the color!! I was totally mad, I'll update w/ a pic tomoro!! well... I have to work at the crack of dawn, soo i'll b updatinq tomoro!!!!

ttul!!

N need of a *HAIR DU*

Soo this is qonna b a pretty borinq post;

Well im kinda excited becuz i ordered my new cortex hair str8ner!!! They're zebra print!!! YAYY*my favorite!!I donno when or how this started, but zebra print has became an obession of mine!!! anywho- i can't wait til they qet here!!! besides my hair really needs to b washed && str8n'd!! nd my otha str8ner decieded that it doesn't wanna str8n' my hair anymore! *bullshyt*!! sooo i can't wait!!!

^^Hurry up pretty baby hurry up!! I need yu!!^^

Then i wanna dye the front of my hair. I can't find any cool colors w/o havin to bleach my hair. I kno this one product i think im gonna use- i don't have to bleach my hair but im contemplatinq becuz i think it damaqes the hair. I'm african american so my hair damaqes fairly easy={...I think im qonna qo with a qoldy-blonde color!! idk!!! it's pretty borinq but I'll c!

here's a litl palette, althouqh it's not to clear. My current hair color is on the left, and the color im thinkinq about qoinq with in on the riqht.

Does any1 have any product suqqestions?? {follow me && let me kno, i'd rele appreciate it!}

How Does love Fade Away but...

Continue to come back?!!? {does anyone know?!}

I been in a situation for the past 3 yrs{weird situation that is}. It hasn't been continuious tho. It's off and on! I call it love because when we are in our *ON* concourse, it feels so right. It's all i kno and all I think of. He would make me happy;; Wen i was qoin thru depressin shit, all i hadda do was tlk to him, && it would take my mind off of erythinq else. I even labeled him as my bestfriend. Knowin that I wasn't his, but it still felt riqht to me even when it wasn't, and even when we had disputes, we always find a way to makeup within minutes! The weird thinq is we never qot alonq when we were around each otha. Of course durinq certain times it was only riqht too, but lookinq past that we never did. It's been yrs between me & him, we never made it as gf/&&bf... but its somethinq, beinq that its lasted this lonq. I just havent found a name for it yet. We would qo on txtn' throuqh-out the day, n late niqht phone calls, til we fall asleep, & b right bac at it in the next few hrs. We live hrs away from each other. This was part of the reason it always faded away & his attitude was another part!!!. anyways, In some ways I think we were jus alike, && that was part of our problem too, so then this is where we fall off!! nd it's always some reason that we end up talkin aqain!! it could b days, wks, or even a few months!! but some how s0me way, it always comes bac, and erythinq starts all over aqain!! We start off okay in the beqinninq but qradually qrow apart aqain!! I wish i knew the epic behind it, or y qod even constantly puts us through this?!I dont reqret any of it, im actually qlad he was sent to me, I could qo on writinq about this situation for days, if I actually thouqht my brain could control so much thinkinq, im'a just leave it as the story behind us is so confusinq!

I'm just wonderinq how does it Fade but Always come back?!?

Sporty/Classy

sooo umm yeah... ima qlamorous/classy make-up chick of course!!
but there comes a tym when I wanna b sporty/&& fly, oh yes!!!
I've had these babies 4 a short while now, but I love em so much,
i'd lik to share them w/ yu guys!!




my lovely blazers, nd punkroses!

COMPUTER LOVE

On sunday,

it was soo weird, I went into church w/ my mom, god-sis, & my nephew... Well we usually always arrive while they're sinqinq. Okay, this sunday they were sinqinq, but in front of a set-up staqe. As church went on, I started to wonder is this sunday different, or is this how church is qonna b set up now, beinq that a lot is chanqinq w/ the appearance. Well, it turns out that my pastor was doinq a litl play thangy this sunday. It was awesome, i've never seen anythinq like it. {u'll understand y ina sec} but, it was so different, and it didn't feel lik church. It all-tied in well n the end tho. okay the theme was *COMPUTER LOVE*, umm humm, wow!! my pastors on top of it!!



sooo,

the service went on and he beqan talkinq about fiqhtinq within yur relationship. {ery1 has these moments, riqht?!} it's life. Well then, he qot to the part where yu jus walk away from your significant other. Soo the stage was set-up lik a office {w/ a desk, computer, shelves, couch & a chair}, and he pretend he was walkinq away from a altercation he had w/ his qirl, to qo take a break and listen to music on his cp, well in that tym, he loqqed into yahoo IM;; nd who's on but his ex. Nd it only feels riqht to tlk to her, becuz yu n yur significant other just had a big fiqht. So he chatted with her, and beinq the type of women she was, she tried to qet deep into his head, she was beinq flirty & tlkn soo encouraqin, actinq as if she was there for him && really wanted him bac!! {this is only the devil} nd to most ppl it works, then this is the point that yu hurt yur current relationship becuz yu fall for the non-sense, && dont think first. This is tru right?

He went on talkinq about how yu meet ppl online, and beqin tlkin to them, thinkinq yur qettin' to kno them, then the next thinq yu kno, yu think yu kno them enouqh to call them yur otherhalf. He talk'd about how the vitural world has influenced this behavior. How erythinq is so realistic,it just feels riqht, when it's truely not. When lookinq into reailty, yu kno nothinq about this person.

He said, god said no1 should b alone, and these behavior take part in the ones who feel alone, or feel lik they have no1. {mayb a sign of lettinq the devil take control, and not havinq faith in qod}

So my pastor's word, was to show that yu need to put yur faults in qods hands. of course him havinq all the knowledge he has, && beinq true to qod, he didn't fall for the ex, he cut the conversation, becuz he knew it was wronq, and he had faith in qod. {If only ALL boys would do just that.} yu hadda b there, to really qet the whole feel of the msg, but it was a lesson learned, and very inspirational, & a qreat quidence, too young teens and older adults.

I just thouqht i'd shared this, since it was somethinq new to me! nd never experinced nethinq lik this in church.