-Hiatus-

So, i realized no matta how bad I wanna keep up with my bloqqinq, I jus can't brinq myself to it!

There's always somethinq qoinq on, or somethinq that interfers unexpected. Soo I'm qonna take a break, & start bloqqinq aqain wen I actually have the tym & qet in the mood to start bloqqinq aqain!! It'll prolly b sumtym afta May!

Ta ta until then! <3

itz my 21st!!!

Wow, it'z been forever!! yeah too much to explain!! but mainly becus I've had a Ear Infection && Preforated?? ear drum!! I think... It'z basically a hole in my ear alonq wit the infection. Painful?!? heck yes, a pain I couldn't even beqan to describe! I hadda qo to the emerqency room plus a PMD..uqhh! it'z been the worst && it'z still not healed, and I'm on two medications, which means NO Alcohol =[ && today happens to be the day I turn 21... boy am I piss'd...jus my damn luckk!! uqhh!! I'm still qonna celebrate as soon as this is cleared up!!

welp justa small update!! hopefully i'll b bac soon!

PiC Updates

So here's half of my room...

I'm now workinq on paintinq the letters on my wall

&& candle cover, && mayb some more blk & white paintinqs i'll load pics when they're completeNext pic update! my 8th tattooo {{ itz justa small 1 }}

tata for now!!

wkend?!?

Sooo, i didn't do as I said, nd update on the reqular last wk!!! ooopss ;-] sorryy!!

Soo my wk & wkend was pretty normal. Nothinq bad, and nothinq really excitinq!! I qot a new tattoo yesterday!! 8th one!!! it's just a small one!! I'll show pics lata!! I'm beinq a little lazy riqht now!! I also went to tarqet!! I picked up a new comforter set for my room!! I Luv it!! It's blk && qold zebra print!! I was a qud deal!!! Soo I had to qet it!! Also picked up a new eye shadow brush!! I was in-need of biqtym!! But i'll take pics of the new room toniqht and post 2maro!!! Got my nails did 2day also!!! I just been spendinq money money money!! I'm tryina to stop- I rele need 2!!! I'm qonna work on that this wk!!!

welp jus qivin a quick update!!!

im outtie for now!!!

Partyin' & Partyin'

Soo I really need to qet wit it && chanqe this template. It's soo plain and borinq!!!

Sooo my wkend was pretty crazy/ funn!! I went to VA, and Saturday was party tym!! I was out wit all my cousins n friends. It was my cousins party, yu hadda b 21 to qet in. Well yu were supposed to be, but it was family soo there was a lot of unda 21 up in there!!! It was a byob, {brinq ya own bottle} && a buy drinks at the bar party...super funnn!! I only remember certain thanqs!!! Every1 had fun, and it was no fiqhtin or shootin!! Wow, whatta surprised!!! It was a classic niqht, that I'm sure half of us would barely remember!

I was re-united with a old friend I use to tlk to, and we jus recently started talkin aqain =] Soo amazin!! I think we were 2qether half of the niqht!! My ex friend was also there, and he was kinda trippin' on us dancin' n crap, but o' well He qot over it eventually!!

After the party we all went to Mc'ds and were havinq a ball!! Then the niqht was over!! Sunday it was soo many stories from ery1. It was pretty funny!!

Here are me & my chicks I rode with!

Keri Hilson cd came out today!!! Yay; so excited { I love her}... I have to pick it up on Friday, I'm too lazy thru out the wk!

Itz been so lonq

I havent updated in forever! Yeah, i'm still livinq, It's mostly, because i've been on the qo a lot lately! If i wasn't on the qo, i was busy doinq stuff around the house or just not in the mood. Hopefully I can qet bac on track, I'll b startinq this wk!!!

I have a lot to do toniqht, soo I'll b bac 2maro!

Hip-hop Celebs!

***Soo when I was in middle school, and sum of hiqh school I was soo in love w/ Lil' Bowwow. Then He became Bow Wow, riqht then I shoulda known he wouldn't b the same aqain! He started actinq all qrown and too much for his own qud! Soo I veered away from beinq a biq fan of his when he started to qain a HUGE eqo! Newho- i still think he's HOTT, and today is his bday. So I just wanted to say HAPPY BDAY!!!

Today is also the day that Biqqie past. 12 yrs ago.. Wth?!? It doesn't seem lik it was that lonq aqo!! I kno my addition is correct. He pasted March 9, 1997. 12yrs riqht? Wow that's crazzyy!! but I jus wanna say R.I.P- Biqqie. {This day also reminds me of his movie!!}

welp that's all for today!!

Shopaholic

My eyes for church;; =]

It was sooo nice out today!! I went to church, came home went for a wlk w/ the fam, then went out to some store..& boy did I realize that....

I'ma real Shopaholic! I can't save money 4 my life!

All I did this wkend was buy stuff wth?!? I needa stop qoinq in stores period, supposedly just lookinq, but I always end up buyinq somethin! Me and my sis, mom, nephew n qod-sis went to sum stores today, i didn't wanna spend any money but i did anyway.

I qot sum shoes!! I was plannin to wear them for my 21st bday, but when I qot home i realized, they stand out enouqh, soo I'm qonna save em' for another event, and buy more for my 21st!! I think they're too close to my skin color!! I still lik em' tho!

oh yeah- i did my toes n zebra print!!! Im qonna need to re-do them soon!

here r da 2 thanqs I picked up from ross on Friday!! i didn't photograph my 3 shirts from C/R they're packed n my baq for this wkend {already} =]

This is the 1 litl shirt I purchased from the mall I wasted my tym qoinq to Saturday!

Welp- i believe dinner is rdy and I'm starvinq, soo I b bac 2maro

adios!

Nothinq ever qoes Riqht

Okay so 2day was borinq for no freakin' reason! I was supposed to qo chill in va w/ S.O.S well thanqs qot screwed up with that, then I was qonna qo clubbn in Va beach, but we fiqured we might waste our tym, nd it's a lot of drivinq, for poor litl ol me!! Soo i ended up stayin home- and supposedly qoinq shoppin! So i searched for malls to qo to, y did we pick the worst freakn mall out of the bunch??, i kno it had to be, i mean it looked lika flea market uqh!! I qot all dressed, did my hair, and make-up for nooooo reason!! to end up back home w/ one freakn shirt!!! I did buy my nephew & qod-dauqhter somethinq also!! but man, was it the worst! Yesterday I did do a litl shoppinq at C/R and Ross!! Ross has the cutest classy clothes for cheap!! I qot quite a bit, and didn't spend much at all!! Would take pics to show what I qot, but I'm beinq a bit to lazy!

my make-up & hair for the day:

So beinq that this wkend sucked, next wkend I will b totally drunk and actually do somethinq!! I'm qoin to va neways, for my qod-dauqhter's 1st yrs bday party, nd I think we're qonna head to va beach afterwards!!

So i'm qonna qo {blow my mind} now, then head to bed!! this day needs 2 b over with! {sigh}

Keri Hilson*

Okay So did any1 watch Rip the RunWay on BET?,

Well I missed the premiere, but I watched it toniqht. Nd boy do I love Keri Hilson!! She's my girl!! Her style is all dat!! I'm soo in love! I love the way she freakn' dresses!! nd She can rele sinq/perform, unlik some other celebs i kno. Not callin' any names. She can also dance her butt off!!! I jus love the way she performs and she makes those faces lik shes top shit, Which I think she one of the hottest, so I quess she has it lik that!! I loved her performance outfit! {which is to the left}...Totally hot!!

okay, well there's nothinq rele new, don't rele have any qud info..so i'm outtie for toniqht!!!

Screwed bloq

What the heck is up with my bloq!! Nuthinq will show up, soo frustratinq!! Nd i soo wanna chanqe this template, but I wanna create my own.

Does ne1 have ne useful sites/source??

I'd appreciate it bunchess!!!

Winter Storms- yayy!

Hola my bloqqers,

Haven't been here in a few days. Nothinqs rele new!! Wkend was okay- I went clubbn' wit the fam! Had fun!

-a quick snap shot b4 we left!

Soo we had a winter storm today here n Maryland!! Heck yahh!! Only bad part is they tried to keep schools open and beinq that I work at a school, we still hadda work, but I drive a freakn MUSTANG, hello people, roads are covered, how do yu expect me to drive a Mustanq in that?! They usually cancel school for a litl snow on sidewalks and litl simple stuff, but today they didn't, wth?!? hello, qet it toqether, plz!! I'm not killinq my self for no1. I watched the news from 5;40am to about 8...they were still rantinq about how bad it was and dont qo out unless yu absolutely have to. My dad even went out and tested my car, nd he was slippin & slidin. So, I call my supervisor and she tells me dont worry about comin in until they clear the roads, soo I sat and waited and waited, no trucks still never came throuqh my neiqhborhood, soo finally at 8:15 I qet a call n schools were finally closed!! I mean Duhh they shoulda been closed, 3 hrs aqo! now i woulda really been pissed if i rele hadda qo out, and then they finally decide to cancel it, riskinq my freakinq life for nothinq!

so here's what it looked like!

adios until 2maro!

Justa typical Thursday

First I would like to say that I think I missed the 2nd show of Makinq the Band? How could I? lol, I knew it seemed lik I havent seen an episode in forever, and thats exactly y. Guess I'll qo watch it online. But I'm currently waitinq for toniqhts episode to start!

But about Diddy, I feel like he's sooo fake- n full of BS, he's sucha actor, but I love the show anyways. It seems lik on every episode the beqinninq starts w/ a huqe predicament, then the endinq ends up all qud. Wth? I just wonder about this show sometyms! Enouqh ramblinq about that faker!!

Soo today, was a huqe headache- I feel lik everythinq I did, was always a waste. Went lookinq for my own place, whatta waste. Afta work I met my mom 20 mins away to qo and qet our taxes done. Nd whatta yu kno when we walk in, the BiTcH isn't even there, she went home sick- {i mean yu kno yu had appointments, yu coulda atleast called the clients and cancelled , riqht?} boy was I mad. Drove all that way and wasted qas for Nuthinq! I did buy sum new Victoria Secret's beauty rush lip qloss/and two waist belts from Forever21. Thats the only qud thinq that came outta that horrible adventure.

Well qonna qo watch mtb4 nd check up on myspace 4 a bit!

www.myspace.com/darreasworld

I'm outtie!

oh yeah b4 I leave- here's a litl sketch done at work!

.dead & qone. -Movement

ByeBye for today- Hopinq 2niqht & 2maro is a lot better!

Sorry for sucha short post!

Invasion of Lon3ly-n3ss

picture- grenninggallery.com

So 2day hasn't been my day, absolutely. My mind has been racinq in all types of directions, UN-controllable. My hearts feelinq siqns of empty nd lonely-ness. It's not that such horrible thangs have happened today, actually nothinq has happened, I've been alone all day, besides the kids at work. Nd that's my whole point, My life is soooooo lonely. And it's weird because it's not that I feel this way everyday. I have my days. But when I have days like this, they hit vigorously. I feel that Ery1 needs at least one special person, to make them feel complete! but me, it's like I haven't nd cant seem to find that completer of my life! I mean, i kno my mom is 1 person, but yu can't do erythin in lyf with yur mom, sometyms yu wanna experience the other side of life w/ sum1 special. but i haven't found this person yet. I kno they all say, "Good Things Come to Those Who Wait." but jeezz I've been waitinq for yrs. Nd I'm soo impatient! I can't take it. Y me?

It's also not about just havinq sum1 special to complete life, other thinqs come alonq wit it. It feels that I'm physical stuck in life. I have the mindset to strive n strive, but I qet no where. It's like do I qive up, throw in the towel? Where do I qo! I'm tired of livinq life in the same ol borinq style. I feel like I'm qettn no where. I wanna new job, can't even find that. My motivation has sailed threw the storm of this terrible recession. I wanna b on my own, I'm tired of livinq w/ my parents. I want MY OWN!! but how do I qo about doinq it?, Every time I feel the couraqe to qet up nd strive for what I want, somethinq always interferes. Lifes so unfair!

Don't qet me wronq, I kno my life isn't bad as it could be, but it's not qud enouqh to make me happy, and that's all that rele matters to me! I do qet proly about 85% of what I want. But I want it at 100%, but lifes just not fair enouqh for that riqht! Of course not, Not mine anyways.

I mean majority of the time your surrounded my heartless lowlife fakes. Then as in my life, you find the people just wanna walk in and out, lik it does no damaqe. When rele, it's practically the worst.

I'm not into poetry but lately it's been my motivation to move on in life, that and havinq faith in qod.

I was readinq throuqh poems today- many of them conveyed every aspect of life and the way I feel about life:: this poem described my feelinqs on today;

my life is here

my life is there

my life is completely everywhere

my life is upside down

my life is inside out

my life is crazy

my life's a scare

my life leads nowhere on an endless path

my life is really somewhere out there -Hayley Foster

FML- im outtie for Now- biqqest headache ever =[

Biqq3st Obs3ssion

Hay L.O.V.E's,

Okay, sooo I was doinq research on a New mustanq to qet, and I totally discovered the love of my life!! omg, no1 wuld understand!! I don't believe in love at first site but I fell in love wit this car at first site! Sadly, I don't kno nor do I think that this Mustanq will b available to any and every1, mayb it will!! I hope it will!! The price will prolly b outta this world!! Well, for what I can afford!! The car is a 2009 Giugiaro. "God send me this AnGel" haha I wish!

While I'm sure the Giugiaro Mustanq will never b mine, I do love the 2010 mustanq, I WANT it, NEED it, GOTTA have it, GONNA get it!!! Soo I chanqe my mind, I want the 2010 instead of the 2008 now!! I want anotha blue one, ahhh, I'm soo in love with Mustanqs! Okay i'm done blabbinq about Mustanqs!!!

heres the 2010 model::

Hope ery1 hadda qud wkend, mine was okay {besides qettin a speedinq ticket, then qettn ran off the ran {smh}} in less than 1hrs time}, I qot drunk && went clubbinq!! I'm soo totally sore!!
but hay I'm still livinq!! Gonna qo catch up on some ress now!

Rihanna battered Photo Released?!?

Soo im sure ery1's heard about the chris brown n rihanna shebang! But all over the news and radio's today is the talk about the FIRST released photo, and WOW, thats scary!! This photo actually made my insides turn!! Ohhh M Geee- they must have sum serious issues, within their relationship. How the hell did chris do this, better yet how the hell could he do this to sum1 I suppose he loved!

well here's the photo! TMZ.com for more info


poor girl, man!

okay about MEEEEE!! I was at work this am, bored as usual! So I made a wish list for 09 as of now;

Wish List

2008 Mustang

Verizon Omnia phone

Coach purse

Juicy purse

Leather hoodie jacket

Tie up heels

New Lace up Sandals

Dolce & Gabbana Sunqlasses

I'm sure it'll be more added to this list pretty soon, beinq that i'm sucha shopaholic! Okay, Well I'm qoinq clubbinq in Va Beach this wkend 4 my cousins bday, i'm excited..and I also qet to c sum1 special while I'm at it!! YAYYY, hope its a success!! I'll b bac MONDAY!

Expect the Unexpected

Hello bloqqers!!

I'm beinq rele lazy, and my mom took forever usinq my computer soo I don't think ima bloq about much!!

My wkend was crazy busy!! Seems lik I was on the qo non-stop! Friday I rode around w/ sum friends, Saturday I drove to Frostburq until about 3am, then I drove a hr n a half bac home and by 6am I was on the road to Va. My wkend was okay, no drama!!

Ohh yeahhh soo I supposably had no Valentine, but i quess sum1 was thinkinq of me, when I was in Frostburq I recieved an unexpected call, tellinq me I had a qift,{SHOCKERR} but I wasn't home soo I hadda qet it wen I qot bac! That was a surprise, becuz we havent rele tlkd this yr! but i was still lik Whatever becuz he's still full of it. {it does smell rele qud tho}

So here it is;

today b4 work i went to Mc'Donalds and I always order Miqhty Kids meals, becuz I never eat all of the big meals, and I qot another Hello Kitty watch!! Yeah i'm almost 21 still eatinq Mighty Kids meals, and lovinq the toys that come wit em, I wanna collect all the watches, they're soo cute!! I have 2 soo far!

okay, well it's almost midniqht, nd I have to b up earlyy 4 work, soo im peacinq out 4 2niqht!! b bac tomoro!

Boys drive me INSANE

Sooo im soo relieved that the class I hadda take for work is over with!! I'm just qettinq home- qlad 2 b here, feels lik I've been qone all day!!

anywho- I flat ironed my hair w/ my new flat iron last niqht I was happy w/ the results, beinq that i'm african american and i havent had a *perm* in 15 months!!! {thats gr8} nd this str8n'er made my hair soo awesome!!! WOOO hOO!! I think I'll do away with the perms for now-on!

results:

okay now lets qet on with this- heres to a more personal level;;

well, I planned a sprinq vacation w/ somethinq lik a IDOIT!! y? Don't even ask; cuz i couldn't even tell yu!! okay, soo one day we were qettin' alonq soo qud- it was the best convo we've had in months nd months;; so I thought, okay mayb it can work- soo we decided to plan a wk trip 2 da beach {to qet away, and focus on us, i quess} soo the next day I went and made reservations. This was lik Jan 21st, okay soo we went on talkinq for a few days, and then within a few wks prolly not even 2wks, we just stop talkin?!? WTF?? nd i do nuthinq wronq;; everythinq jus has to b his way or no way;; or done wen he has time or not done at all. So this drew us apart. So here it is not even a month later- and we arent talkinq. So about 2 days aqo, i step up and told him if thinqs are qonna be lik this then i refuse to qo- so lets qet ready to pay the cancellation fee- soo he throws the "We qonna qo, it's not yu it's me. I just needa qet my head riqht." *BULLSHIT* i can't let this slide;; n jus carry on!! noo wayy...So im qoinq insane tryin fiqure out what to do, What do i do?!? If I give in, that means he wins, and i don't want that. I already said i'm not qonna qo thru this "if its not his way it's no way" but it doesn't reqister to him. So where do i qo?! So, this is somethinq that I'm constantly confused over everyday. Y meeee??!??

okay im done yappinq about him;; I'm qonna finish watchinq the premiere of Makinq the Band, && the qo shower to clear this head of mine!!!

p.s- i'm sooo into "Q"== wooo!!=]

Valentine-less

While at work at 7 am;; it's qets borinq, so Tuesday I re-created a eye from a eyeshadow advertisement I had handy!

Onto the subject;
Soo, Valentines day is about 3days away! Nd ery girl should be excited riqht?! Well of course I'm NOT!! No Valentine for me, it's a reqular ol' day!! Just like every yr, I've never really had a Valentine's day lik a "special one." Maybe thats tellinq me that I needa purse a man, instead of a "supposed 2b man." I wont be qoinq on any dates or recievinq gifts;; so i'm planninq to take a trip to Frostburq to spend the wkend with my friend, who's also valentine-less!!! {oh yeah btw, i kinda created my own word}

Hopefully this will be my last yr Valentine-less!!! I'm just qlad i'm not one whos' been in a relationship nd broke up just b4 Valentines, that's the worst, and it truely sucks. I kno about 5 ppl thats qoinq thru this situation at the moment! Honestly, whats up wit that?!? Sooo not qud!

anywhoooo-

So, im patiently waitinq for a package to arrive!! I purchased a 120 eyeshadow kit!! I'm soo excited, Now i'm pretty sure I'll be playinq wit my make-up a lot more when it arrives!

here it is,well this is all for now, I'll b bac 2maro w/ a more personal post;; "promises", cause i've been slackinq w/ my bloqs!! Forqive mee!!=]