N need of a *HAIR DU*

Soo this is qonna b a pretty borinq post;

Well im kinda excited becuz i ordered my new cortex hair str8ner!!! They're zebra print!!! YAYY*my favorite!!I donno when or how this started, but zebra print has became an obession of mine!!! anywho- i can't wait til they qet here!!! besides my hair really needs to b washed && str8n'd!! nd my otha str8ner decieded that it doesn't wanna str8n' my hair anymore! *bullshyt*!! sooo i can't wait!!!

^^Hurry up pretty baby hurry up!! I need yu!!^^

Then i wanna dye the front of my hair. I can't find any cool colors w/o havin to bleach my hair. I kno this one product i think im gonna use- i don't have to bleach my hair but im contemplatinq becuz i think it damaqes the hair. I'm african american so my hair damaqes fairly easy={...I think im qonna qo with a qoldy-blonde color!! idk!!! it's pretty borinq but I'll c!

here's a litl palette, althouqh it's not to clear. My current hair color is on the left, and the color im thinkinq about qoinq with in on the riqht.

Does any1 have any product suqqestions?? {follow me && let me kno, i'd rele appreciate it!}

How Does love Fade Away but...

Continue to come back?!!? {does anyone know?!}

I been in a situation for the past 3 yrs{weird situation that is}. It hasn't been continuious tho. It's off and on! I call it love because when we are in our *ON* concourse, it feels so right. It's all i kno and all I think of. He would make me happy;; Wen i was qoin thru depressin shit, all i hadda do was tlk to him, && it would take my mind off of erythinq else. I even labeled him as my bestfriend. Knowin that I wasn't his, but it still felt riqht to me even when it wasn't, and even when we had disputes, we always find a way to makeup within minutes! The weird thinq is we never qot alonq when we were around each otha. Of course durinq certain times it was only riqht too, but lookinq past that we never did. It's been yrs between me & him, we never made it as gf/&&bf... but its somethinq, beinq that its lasted this lonq. I just havent found a name for it yet. We would qo on txtn' throuqh-out the day, n late niqht phone calls, til we fall asleep, & b right bac at it in the next few hrs. We live hrs away from each other. This was part of the reason it always faded away & his attitude was another part!!!. anyways, In some ways I think we were jus alike, && that was part of our problem too, so then this is where we fall off!! nd it's always some reason that we end up talkin aqain!! it could b days, wks, or even a few months!! but some how s0me way, it always comes bac, and erythinq starts all over aqain!! We start off okay in the beqinninq but qradually qrow apart aqain!! I wish i knew the epic behind it, or y qod even constantly puts us through this?!I dont reqret any of it, im actually qlad he was sent to me, I could qo on writinq about this situation for days, if I actually thouqht my brain could control so much thinkinq, im'a just leave it as the story behind us is so confusinq!

I'm just wonderinq how does it Fade but Always come back?!?

Sporty/Classy

sooo umm yeah... ima qlamorous/classy make-up chick of course!!
but there comes a tym when I wanna b sporty/&& fly, oh yes!!!
I've had these babies 4 a short while now, but I love em so much,
i'd lik to share them w/ yu guys!!




my lovely blazers, nd punkroses!

COMPUTER LOVE

On sunday,

it was soo weird, I went into church w/ my mom, god-sis, & my nephew... Well we usually always arrive while they're sinqinq. Okay, this sunday they were sinqinq, but in front of a set-up staqe. As church went on, I started to wonder is this sunday different, or is this how church is qonna b set up now, beinq that a lot is chanqinq w/ the appearance. Well, it turns out that my pastor was doinq a litl play thangy this sunday. It was awesome, i've never seen anythinq like it. {u'll understand y ina sec} but, it was so different, and it didn't feel lik church. It all-tied in well n the end tho. okay the theme was *COMPUTER LOVE*, umm humm, wow!! my pastors on top of it!!



sooo,

the service went on and he beqan talkinq about fiqhtinq within yur relationship. {ery1 has these moments, riqht?!} it's life. Well then, he qot to the part where yu jus walk away from your significant other. Soo the stage was set-up lik a office {w/ a desk, computer, shelves, couch & a chair}, and he pretend he was walkinq away from a altercation he had w/ his qirl, to qo take a break and listen to music on his cp, well in that tym, he loqqed into yahoo IM;; nd who's on but his ex. Nd it only feels riqht to tlk to her, becuz yu n yur significant other just had a big fiqht. So he chatted with her, and beinq the type of women she was, she tried to qet deep into his head, she was beinq flirty & tlkn soo encouraqin, actinq as if she was there for him && really wanted him bac!! {this is only the devil} nd to most ppl it works, then this is the point that yu hurt yur current relationship becuz yu fall for the non-sense, && dont think first. This is tru right?

He went on talkinq about how yu meet ppl online, and beqin tlkin to them, thinkinq yur qettin' to kno them, then the next thinq yu kno, yu think yu kno them enouqh to call them yur otherhalf. He talk'd about how the vitural world has influenced this behavior. How erythinq is so realistic,it just feels riqht, when it's truely not. When lookinq into reailty, yu kno nothinq about this person.

He said, god said no1 should b alone, and these behavior take part in the ones who feel alone, or feel lik they have no1. {mayb a sign of lettinq the devil take control, and not havinq faith in qod}

So my pastor's word, was to show that yu need to put yur faults in qods hands. of course him havinq all the knowledge he has, && beinq true to qod, he didn't fall for the ex, he cut the conversation, becuz he knew it was wronq, and he had faith in qod. {If only ALL boys would do just that.} yu hadda b there, to really qet the whole feel of the msg, but it was a lesson learned, and very inspirational, & a qreat quidence, too young teens and older adults.

I just thouqht i'd shared this, since it was somethinq new to me! nd never experinced nethinq lik this in church.

Biqq3st Crush

OKAY, sooo this qirl said she was reminded of

me when she saw this video{_xo_thanx, jenn_xo_}.

I love ery sec of this video, it feels lik me,

I have the biqqest crush on OUR PRESIDENT=}

Happiness is POW3R

Okayy,

its been a lonqq tym, since i was last here i was qettin rdy for the next day to watch the INAUGURATION... well i did just that. It was so great!!! I'm kinda qlad i didn't qo, I lik'd havin front row seats, in my room && my moms room. It was soo unreal. The whole day as I watched, I smiled, had tears of joy, && stayed qlued to the tv. I've never paid attention to anything lik this. The words were powerful, && every litl action that was made brought joy to my heart. I'm so qlad everythinq went well. One of my favorite parts, were wen BARACK && MiCHELLE stepped out of the car at the parade. No1 knew exactly wat was qonna happen, but it ended in peace and happiness!! I love our president && vice president, they're wonderful carinq ppl, they have such qreat connection w/ the american ppl. I'm lookinq foward to these next 4yrs!!

ohh yahhh, well at this moment... i'm holdinq on to my happiness! I have such weird feelinqs these days, but I have faith, & keepinq my trust in qod..that erythinq is qonna work out as planned. {btw- this gives me a qreat idea for tomoros bloq}

anywho- i'm hopeful that this feelinq will last, and chanqe lyf for the better, I kno it's in us, so i'm believeinq!!!

welp im outtie for toniqht!

Wkend Add-0n

Okay, soo its been 2days? yeah i think thats riqht..





Well, i'm qlad to say I didn't work today nor do I work for the next 2days. Tomorrow {JAN.20,2009} is somethinq special!!!! OUR 1st black president is sworen in!!! {OBAMA}...HELL yes, I'm soo excited, i'm soo ready for a CHANq3!! I've never been this much into politics, but with BARACK nd MICHELLE's word it really drew me to it. Their words are touchinq and r a biq inspiration to me. I really feel lik they wanna do riqht and help the american ppl, unlike some of these cowards out here in this world. With god, n these special ppl, i think i every1 will c chanqe, if they believe in it... which i'm puttinq my mind to believein it too. I hope chanqe comes as were all hopinq. I need a full-time job & help with school loans!!! Although, I am rather upset cause i really wanted to b at the INUAGURATION, but it's qonna b chaos, i kno!! So I'm just qonna sit home and watch from the tv.

On Saturday I mentioned I wanted to do one of a few thinqs. Well, i ended up qoinq to c NOTORIOUS. It was qud. I enjoyed it, atleast I ain't stay home bored all niqht. Sunday I went to church, I enjoyed that as well. I really like my church. My pastor isn't one of the old ol' tymie ones, and he actually speaks on ppl up to date eryday lives and situations. I learn n understand it well!

this is way on to another topic, but I realized {even more} it's hard to trust the ppl yu call friends, I feel like if yur a friend, yu needa been str8 up, about everythinq, if yu dont like or wanna do somethinq, shit, b str8 up, and let it be known...if not then there follows akward feelinqs, qet it over n done with from the jump nd erythinq will prolly b all qud, instead of the phony shit. okay, i needed to vent that out!!

I also finished my book this wkend! * A Hustler's Wife* I loved it, wow!!! Shit is really real. it made me think a lot!! I also learned a lot from this book as well, I'm so excited to start the sequel. I think I qot erything out for today, so I'ma qet to readinq that now.

Wkend in My lyf

I aint been here in a few days, partly becus my computer wasnt workinq, nd i've been kinda busy, i dont have a main topic for this bloq,
my sis had a party this wkend, and can we jus say uqhh, i quess i shoulda went to va afta all, mayb my *friend* wouldn't b mad me at me at this moment. Hopefully he'll find a way to qet over it and txt me soon. its not the best feelinq, but ive learned to live wit it.

Well back to the party, ummm y do ppl disrespect otha's homes? nd do shit lik smoke "W" right on the front step, jeez, thats y parties never last, yur askin for the police to come. I learned now, never to let ppl yu rele dont invite in, becuz they dont qiva fuck, nd there soo rude!! anyways...

now to boys 4 the wkend, sooo funny, i love how some want to tlk sisters cousins nieces and all, and then lie about it. wow, qetta qrip. then i love the ones that wanna talk to yu, nd they tlk to sum1 else and try to say they dont, so they wanna act lik they dont kno yu wen yall all qet toqether.. hahaha! well neither of them are any concern of mine, so really keep it movinq..yu jus playinq yurself!!

soo toniqht im tryinq do a few thangs, havent made up my mind yet, but b sure to qet a update tomoro!! im outtie for now

Erythinq Riqht qoes Wronq

Y can't anythinq ever qo riqht?

Soo i had a total of 3 different plans for the wkend, and every sinqle one failed. Nothinqs ever on my side i swear. I donno what to do anymore. My 1st plan, made me feel special, and I was excited about it, the 2nd one qot me excited, but it didnt really have an affect on me wen it didn't qo thru. BUTTT, the 3rd one meant a lot. nd to recieve the excuse that I did, hurt a lot.. I mean it felt lik a life chanqinq plan, and to just not qo thru wit it lik its nuthinq, hurt the hell out of me. beinq that im sittinq here almost in tears, i rele kno it meant a lot. But i quess erythinq happens for a reason, I just can't qet that thru my head, when will i ever? I quess, all i have to depend on is me && my heart. It seems like its the only thinq that wont let me down now a days. Wtf?!? this is a sad life, when will it qet better? Yeah i kno it aint even close to as bad as it could b, but damn can it be qud as to where im happy?!?,

on top of all this, my mom is bein soo evil this wk, which is not qud && it's rele buqqinq me out. Work wasnt fun, one of the kids was throwinq fits and being aqqressive, other kids were beinq smart mouth litl bratz, uqhh, idk maybe it may b me, but somethinq has to be fiqured out fast. i'm qoinq crazy in my mind. so obviously today was a horrible day. I'm prayinq and qoin to bed, I hope tomoro, is nooo ways lik this, I'm actually prayinq that it's not.

Dumb Azz GiRLz

soo im back.. this is one of my favorite christmas gifts i recieved this christmas. I was bored at work this morning, so of course i love taken pics, so y not take pics of 2 of a girls favorite thangs, diamonds n dooney && burke!!! yep yep, its two of mine!!

soo its been a long wkend, nd 1 question? Why the fuck do girls stay in ya business? I mean I went to a party minding my business, and here 2-3 CERTAIN girls go txtn my EX tellin him I'm there, ok get this, FOR 1 he's my EX, for 2 we dont tlk so y run tell him?, nd 3 y that fuck r yu that concerned about me that yu gotta run tell where im at? I swears kids just dont grow up!! but i feel kinda gud that they felt the needa to be soo worried about MEE, but for future advice, i mean GROW the fuck up nd GET over me, thanx!
sooo that was pretty much my wkend, nuthing exciting rele happened, nd ima get bac at yu guys tomoro!!

insanely borinq day

Hey,

it's me aqain...So it's Saturday, and im sittinq in the house watchinq, re-runs of REAL CHANCE of LOVE. Just qot bac from the mall, I finally found my "buffalo plaid" shirts, I've been searchinq for. That's about the only qud part of this day. Yu'll find the im always wantinq to buy or shop for somethinq , one way or another.

Livinq life in Frederick can qet soo borinq. That explains y im tryin find a way to qet away from here. Since it's so borinq, i like to enqaqe my time to my creative side. When im down or extremely bored, yu can either find me in the shower, paintinq, or creatinq somethinq on photoshop. My 3 paintinq ^^here^^, were inspired by lonely-ness. They're actually 3 of my favorites also. I quess it brinqs out a qud thinq, but who likes to be lonely?!? Not me.

Oh yeah today I also came to da conclusion, that I really do want a new {2008}mustanq, I just qotta have one. A "BLACK" one that is. Gotta be a GT{V8}. I'm so in love with it. The inside, took my heart!! Soo this is somethinq im qonna focus on. I needa take time to make sure it's a rele qud idea first, but hopefully I'll have one SOON.

So i told ya'll i was watchinq my nephew last niqht n i didn't qet any sleep, and I have nothinq to do riqht now, so im qonna use this time to qo to sleep, b bac 2maro.

Introducinq M3

Im new to this, So i'll tell yu about me::

Im stuck under a rock in lyf at the moment, Im lookinq in ery direction to try and get over this rock;

Somethinq needs to come Quickly,

~Yu really have no clue what my mind wonders about,

~ half the tym im not sure y things qo the way they

do in lyf.

~My ♥ lyf is incomplete;

theres sum1 i focus on, but dont rele kno if i should and y i do.

~theres also sum1 who walked outta my life; after 51/2yrs {it doesnt make sense 2me} {but we take wat qod puts us throuqh} I quess it was for the better, but the BETTER part of it just hasnt qotten here yet. =[

My dreamz r still in the makinq;;

im sure yu'll notice fairly quick that im interested in paintinq, drawinq, desiqn, photoqraphy, nd cosmo!

these thanqs are wat make my lyf worth livinq.

Sooo I'm baby sittinq my nephew, nd my mind is at rather huqe standstill riqht now, so im qonna qo now,

i'll update 2maro.