So, i realized no matta how bad I wanna keep up with my bloqqinq, I jus can't brinq myself to it!
Wow, it'z been forever!! yeah too much to explain!! but mainly becus I've had a Ear Infection && Preforated?? ear drum!! I think... It'z basically a hole in my ear alonq wit the infection. Painful?!? heck yes, a pain I couldn't even beqan to describe! I hadda qo to the emerqency room plus a PMD..uqhh! it'z been the worst && it'z still not healed, and I'm on two medications, which means NO Alcohol =[ && today happens to be the day I turn 21... boy am I piss'd...jus my damn luckk!! uqhh!! I'm still qonna celebrate as soon as this is cleared up!!
welp justa small update!! hopefully i'll b bac soon!
So here's half of my room...
Next pic update! my 8th tattooo {{ itz justa small 1 }}
Sooo, i didn't do as I said, nd update on the reqular last wk!!! ooopss ;-] sorryy!!
Soo my wk & wkend was pretty normal. Nothinq bad, and nothinq really excitinq!! I qot a new tattoo yesterday!! 8th one!!! it's just a small one!! I'll show pics lata!! I'm beinq a little lazy riqht now!! I also went to tarqet!! I picked up a new comforter set for my room!! I Luv it!! It's blk && qold zebra print!! I was a qud deal!!! Soo I had to qet it!! Also picked up a new eye shadow brush!! I was in-need of biqtym!! But i'll take pics of the new room toniqht and post 2maro!!! Got my nails did 2day also!!! I just been spendinq money money money!! I'm tryina to stop- I rele need 2!!! I'm qonna work on that this wk!!!
welp jus qivin a quick update!!!
im outtie for now!!!
Soo I really need to qet wit it && chanqe this template. It's soo plain and borinq!!!
Keri Hilson cd came out today!!! Yay; so excited { I love her}... I have to pick it up on Friday, I'm too lazy thru out the wk!
I havent updated in forever! Yeah, i'm still livinq, It's mostly, because i've been on the qo a lot lately! If i wasn't on the qo, i was busy doinq stuff around the house or just not in the mood. Hopefully I can qet bac on track, I'll b startinq this wk!!!
I have a lot to do toniqht, soo I'll b bac 2maro!
***Soo when I was in middle school, and sum of hiqh school I was soo in love w/ Lil' Bowwow. Then He became Bow Wow, riqht then I shoulda known he wouldn't b the same aqain! He started actinq all qrown and too much for his own qud! Soo I veered away from beinq a biq fan of his when he started to qain a HUGE eqo! Newho- i still think he's HOTT, and today is his bday. So I just wanted to say HAPPY BDAY!!!
My eyes for church;; =]
It was sooo nice out today!! I went to church, came home went for a wlk w/ the fam, then went out to some store..& boy did I realize that....
I'ma real Shopaholic! I can't save money 4 my life!
oh yeah- i did my toes n zebra print!!! Im qonna need to re-do them soon!
This is the 1 litl shirt I purchased from the mall I wasted my tym qoinq to Saturday!
Welp- i believe dinner is rdy and I'm starvinq, soo I b bac 2maro
adios!
Okay so 2day was borinq for no freakin' reason! I was supposed to qo chill in va w/ S.O.S well thanqs qot screwed up with that, then I was qonna qo clubbn in Va beach, but we fiqured we might waste our tym, nd it's a lot of drivinq, for poor litl ol me!! Soo i ended up stayin home- and supposedly qoinq shoppin! So i searched for malls to qo to, y did we pick the worst freakn mall out of the bunch??, i kno it had to be, i mean it looked lika flea market uqh!! I qot all dressed, did my hair, and make-up for nooooo reason!! to end up back home w/ one freakn shirt!!! I did buy my nephew & qod-dauqhter somethinq also!! but man, was it the worst! Yesterday I did do a litl shoppinq at C/R and Ross!! Ross has the cutest classy clothes for cheap!! I qot quite a bit, and didn't spend much at all!! Would take pics to show what I qot, but I'm beinq a bit to lazy!
So beinq that this wkend sucked, next wkend I will b totally drunk and actually do somethinq!! I'm qoin to va neways, for my qod-dauqhter's 1st yrs bday party, nd I think we're qonna head to va beach afterwards!!
What the heck is up with my bloq!! Nuthinq will show up, soo frustratinq!! Nd i soo wanna chanqe this template, but I wanna create my own.
Does ne1 have ne useful sites/source??
I'd appreciate it bunchess!!!
Hola my bloqqers,
First I would like to say that I think I missed the 2nd show of Makinq the Band? How could I? lol, I knew it seemed lik I havent seen an episode in forever, and thats exactly y. Guess I'll qo watch it online. But I'm currently waitinq for toniqhts episode to start!
ByeBye for today- Hopinq 2niqht & 2maro is a lot better!picture- grenninggallery.com
nothinq has happened, I've been alone all day, besides the kids at work. Nd that's my whole point, My life is soooooo lonely. And it's weird because it's not that I feel this way everyday. I have my days. But when I have days like this, they hit vigorously. I feel that Ery1 needs at least one special person, to make them feel complete! but me, it's like I haven't nd cant seem to find that completer of my life! I mean, i kno my mom is 1 person, but yu can't do erythin in lyf with yur mom, sometyms yu wanna experience the other side of life w/ sum1 special. but i haven't found this person yet. I kno they all say, "Good Things Come to Those Who Wait." but jeezz I've been waitinq for yrs. Nd I'm soo impatient! I can't take it. Y me?Hay L.O.V.E's,
Okay, sooo I was doinq research on a New mustanq to qet, and I totally discovered the love of my life!! omg, no1 wuld understand!! I don't believe in love at first site but I fell in love wit this car at first site! Sadly, I don't kno nor do I think that this Mustanq will b available to any and every1, mayb it will!! I hope it will!! The price will prolly b outta this world!! Well, for what I can afford!! The car is a 2009 Giugiaro. "God send me this AnGel" haha I wish!
While I'm sure the Giugiaro Mustanq will never b mine, I do love the 2010 mustanq, I WANT it, NEED it, GOTTA have it, GONNA get it!!! Soo I chanqe my mind, I want the 2010 instead of the 2008 now!! I want anotha blue one, ahhh, I'm soo in love with Mustanqs! Okay i'm done blabbinq about Mustanqs!!! 
Hope ery1 hadda qud wkend, mine was okay {besides qettin a speedinq ticket, then qettn ran off the ran {smh}} in less than 1hrs time}, I qot drunk && went clubbinq!! I'm soo totally sore!!Soo im sure ery1's heard about the chris brown n rihanna shebang! But all over the news and radio's today is the talk about the FIRST released photo, and WOW, thats scary!! This photo actually made my insides turn!! Ohhh M Geee- they must have sum serious issues, within their relationship. How the hell did chris do this, better yet how the hell could he do this to sum1 I suppose he loved!
well here's the photo! TMZ.com for more info
poor girl, man!
okay about MEEEEE!! I was at work this am, bored as usual! So I made a wish list for 09 as of now;
Wish List
2008 Mustang
Verizon Omnia phone
Coach purse
Juicy purse
Leather hoodie jacket
Tie up heels
New Lace up Sandals
Dolce & Gabbana Sunqlasses
I'm sure it'll be more added to this list pretty soon, beinq that i'm sucha shopaholic! Okay, Well I'm qoinq clubbinq in Va Beach this wkend 4 my cousins bday, i'm excited..and I also qet to c sum1 special while I'm at it!! YAYYY, hope its a success!! I'll b bac MONDAY!
Hello bloqqers!!
okay now lets qet on with this- heres to a more personal level;;
well, I planned a sprinq vacation w/ somethinq lik a IDOIT!! y? Don't even ask; cuz i couldn't even tell yu!! okay, soo one day we were qettin' alonq soo qud- it was the best convo we've had in months nd months;; so I thought, okay mayb it can work- soo we decided to plan a wk trip 2 da beach {to qet away, and focus on us, i quess} soo the next day I went and made reservations. This was lik Jan 21st, okay soo we went on talkinq for a few days, and then within a few wks prolly not even 2wks, we just stop talkin?!? WTF?? nd i do nuthinq wronq;; everythinq jus has to b his way or no way;; or done wen he has time or not done at all. So this drew us apart. So here it is not even a month later- and we arent talkinq. So about 2 days aqo, i step up and told him if thinqs are qonna be lik this then i refuse to qo- so lets qet ready to pay the cancellation fee- soo he throws the "We qonna qo, it's not yu it's me. I just needa qet my head riqht." *BULLSHIT* i can't let this slide;; n jus carry on!! noo wayy...So im qoinq insane tryin fiqure out what to do, What do i do?!? If I give in, that means he wins, and i don't want that. I already said i'm not qonna qo thru this "if its not his way it's no way" but it doesn't reqister to him. So where do i qo?! So, this is somethinq that I'm constantly confused over everyday. Y meeee??!??
okay im done yappinq about him;; I'm qonna finish watchinq the premiere of Makinq the Band, && the qo shower to clear this head of mine!!!
p.s- i'm sooo into "Q"== wooo!!=]
Onto the subject;
well this is all for now, I'll b bac 2maro w/ a more personal post;; "promises", cause i've been slackinq w/ my bloqs!! Forqive mee!!=]Soo I wanna say,
THANKs 2 .The 411 on Everything Glam.
I knew I could recieve comments, just thouqht no1 really paid attention to my bloqs yet, since i'm new to this!! But now I found out how to qet my comments workinq and realized they didn't after yur post!! THANKS BUNCHESSS!!
p.s- tay yu can comment now too!!! =]
peace til later!
I haven't been here in a few days. i haven't rele been in the mood, but as the days have passed and I've been drivinq back and forth to work I constantly hear this sonq on the radio!
okay, so i've had this sonq on my myspace for a couple of months now, it's REHAB by Rihanna, but as it qets played on the radio more & more now, I feel like jeez- Rihanna rele knew my feelinqs at a point a time in my life. I find it crazy how sonqs can explain yur whole feelinq on life. Nd this one did jus that!!
I feel lik this sonq explains how I felt when me nd my ex, beqan to fall apart, && move on w/ our lives.
Lyrics:
*[Pre Chorus:]And I'll never give myself to another The way I gave it to youDon't even recognize The ways you hurt me Do you?It's gonna take a miracle to bring me back And you're the one to blame
[Chorus:]And now I feel like, oh You're the reason Why I'm thinking I don't wanna smoke on These cigarettes no more, I guess that's what I get For wishful thinking, I should've never let you enter my door, Next time you wanna go on and leave I should just let you go on and do it, Cause now I'm using like I bleed, It's like I checked into rehab and Baby, you're my disease! *
These few lyrics explained ery emotion injected into my soul a few months aqo- Althouqh i've heard this sonq for months now, i don't think i'll ever qet tired of it becuz it has such an impact on my life. It does brinq bac memories, but I act as a soilder and suck it up for the tym beinq that the sonq plays.
but really, like how do ppl process thinqs that can mean so much to yu, or describe yur feelinqs so well? its soo eerie, erractic & akward!! yes, it's all of those! The pre-chorus was me && is me now!! My ex was all I knew, basically {after 5 1/2 i'd think so}, && now that he's qone, it's taken a MIRACLE to qet me back at the level w/ any other guys!
So, althouqh this isn't my favorite sonq, it's prolly one that'll i'll remember forever, just becuz of the meaninq, and the fact that it came out at the time I was qoinq thru these chanqes in lyf!
welp I qotta qet rdy for work in the am, tuttles!
Hey ppl,
It's been a lonq wk/wkend. I ain't been here in a few days, seems lik i been on da qo a lot this wkend, for a chanqe. Soo let c,
I talked to all the ppl that make me happy this wkend, thats a plus! Friday I went to the movies to c 3-d bloody valetine, I don't like the fact they said it was 3-d, with hardly any 3-d effects. It was a qreat movie tho, don't qet me wronq, i'm pretty sure it'll b a part II, that I will be seeinq!!! I'm jus not lookinq forward to this valentine, after seeinq it!!! hahahaha- j/k!! it was cool, I also went out saturday. Somethinq i hardly ever do!! I was drinkinq a litl soo I had an okay tym!! quess betta than stayinq in, Beinq that today was the suberbowl, I went to a litl superbowl birthday party then, I watched a litl bit of that, since im not rele a football fan, i didn't watch the whole thinq. I went out for a litl toniqht also!! the endinq of the niqht was ruined tho, uqhhh! it wasn't on no crazy depression shit tho!! thats a qud thanq! but WOW, i was rele on the qo this wkend as I look back at it!!
My flat iron came SATURDAYYY, i was soo excited! I did me, my motha & qod-sis' hair!! haha, I was kinda mad cause it turn out that is was silver and black zebra print!! but i still love em' they're still cute!!! well anywho- soo i mentioned that I wanted to die my hair, lets just say uqqqhhh, i went into the store, knowinq wat color I wanted, but when I qot to the hair dye section and started to look at the different colors, I saw a pretty color and I went on pickinq that color over my color I had in mine.---yyyyy?!? sooo I went home and did my hair, and yu can barely c the color!! I was totally mad, I'll update w/ a pic tomoro!! well... I have to work at the crack of dawn, soo i'll b updatinq tomoro!!!!
ttul!!
Soo this is qonna b a pretty borinq post;
new cortex hair str8ner!!! They're zebra print!!! YAYY*my favorite!!I donno when or how this started, but zebra print has became an obession of mine!!! anywho- i can't wait til they qet here!!! besides my hair really needs to b washed && str8n'd!! nd my otha str8ner decieded that it doesn't wanna str8n' my hair anymore! *bullshyt*!! sooo i can't wait!!! 
here's a litl palette, althouqh it's not to clear. My current hair color is on the left, and the color im thinkinq about qoinq with in on the riqht.
sooo umm yeah... ima qlamorous/classy make-up chick of course!!
but there comes a tym when I wanna b sporty/&& fly, oh yes!!!
I've had these babies 4 a short while now, but I love em so much,
i'd lik to share them w/ yu guys!!
my lovely blazers, nd punkroses!
On sunday,
it was soo weird, I went into church w/ my mom, god-sis, & my nephew... Well we usually always arrive while they're sinqinq. Okay, this sunday they were sinqinq, but in front of a set-up staqe. As church went on, I started to wonder is this sunday different, or is this how church is qonna b set up now, beinq that a lot is chanqinq w/ the appearance. Well, it turns out that my pastor was doinq a litl play thangy this sunday. It was awesome, i've never seen anythinq like it. {u'll understand y ina sec} but, it was so different, and it didn't feel lik church. It all-tied in well n the end tho. okay the theme was *COMPUTER LOVE*, umm humm, wow!! my pastors on top of it!!
sooo,
the service went on and he beqan talkinq about fiqhtinq within yur relationship. {ery1 has these moments, riqht?!} it's life. Well then, he qot to the part where yu jus walk away from your significant other. Soo the stage was set-up lik a office {w/ a desk, computer, shelves, couch & a chair}, and he pretend he was walkinq away from a altercation he had w/ his qirl, to qo take a break and listen to music on his cp, well in that tym, he loqqed into yahoo IM;; nd who's on but his ex. Nd it only feels riqht to tlk to her, becuz yu n yur significant other just had a big fiqht. So he chatted with her, and beinq the type of women she was, she tried to qet deep into his head, she was beinq flirty & tlkn soo encouraqin, actinq as if she was there for him && really wanted him bac!! {this is only the devil} nd to most ppl it works, then this is the point that yu hurt yur current relationship becuz yu fall for the non-sense, && dont think first. This is tru right?
He went on talkinq about how yu meet ppl online, and beqin tlkin to them, thinkinq yur qettin' to kno them, then the next thinq yu kno, yu think yu kno them enouqh to call them yur otherhalf. He talk'd about how the vitural world has influenced this behavior. How erythinq is so realistic,it just feels riqht, when it's truely not. When lookinq into reailty, yu kno nothinq about this person.
He said, god said no1 should b alone, and these behavior take part in the ones who feel alone, or feel lik they have no1. {mayb a sign of lettinq the devil take control, and not havinq faith in qod}
So my pastor's word, was to show that yu need to put yur faults in qods hands. of course him havinq all the knowledge he has, && beinq true to qod, he didn't fall for the ex, he cut the conversation, becuz he knew it was wronq, and he had faith in qod. {If only ALL boys would do just that.} yu hadda b there, to really qet the whole feel of the msg, but it was a lesson learned, and very inspirational, & a qreat quidence, too young teens and older adults.
OKAY, sooo this qirl said she was reminded of
me when she saw this video{_xo_thanx, jenn_xo_}.
I love ery sec of this video, it feels lik me,
I have the biqqest crush on OUR PRESIDENT=}
Okay, soo its been 2days? yeah i think thats riqht..
Well, i'm qlad to say I didn't work today nor do I work for the next 2days. Tomorrow {JAN.20,2009} is somethinq special!!!! OUR 1st black president is sworen in!!! {OBAMA}...HELL yes, I'm soo excited, i'm soo ready for a CHANq3!! I've never been this much into politics, but with BARACK nd MICHELLE's word it really drew me to it. Their words are touchinq and r a biq inspiration to me. I really feel lik they wanna do riqht and help the american ppl, unlike some of these cowards out here in this world. With god, n these special ppl, i think i every1 will c chanqe, if they believe in it... which i'm puttinq my mind to believein it too. I hope chanqe comes as were all hopinq. I need a full-time job & help with school loans!!! Although, I am rather upset cause i really wanted to b at the INUAGURATION, but it's qonna b chaos, i kno!! So I'm just qonna sit home and watch from the tv.
On Saturday I mentioned I wanted to do one of a few thinqs. Well, i ended up qoinq to c NOTORIOUS. It was qud. I enjoyed it, atleast I ain't stay home bored all niqht. Sunday I went to church, I enjoyed that as well. I really like my church. My pastor isn't one of the old ol' tymie ones, and he actually speaks on ppl up to date eryday lives and situations. I learn n understand it well!
this is way on to another topic, but I realized {even more} it's hard to trust the ppl yu call friends, I feel like if yur a friend, yu needa been str8 up, about everythinq, if yu dont like or wanna do somethinq, shit, b str8 up, and let it be known...if not then there follows akward feelinqs, qet it over n done with from the jump nd erythinq will prolly b all qud, instead of the phony shit. okay, i needed to vent that out!!
I also finished my book this wkend! * A Hustler's Wife* I loved it, wow!!! Shit is really real. it made me think a lot!! I also learned a lot from this book as well, I'm so excited to start the sequel. I think I qot erything out for today, so I'ma qet to readinq that now.
I aint been here in a few days, partly becus my computer wasnt workinq, nd i've been kinda busy, i dont have a main topic for this bloq,
my sis had a party this wkend, and can we jus say uqhh, i quess i shoulda went to va afta all, mayb my *friend* wouldn't b mad me at me at this moment. Hopefully he'll find a way to qet over it and txt me soon. its not the best feelinq, but ive learned to live wit it.
Well back to the party, ummm y do ppl disrespect otha's homes? nd do shit lik smoke "W" right on the front step, jeez, thats y parties never last, yur askin for the police to come. I learned now, never to let ppl yu rele dont invite in, becuz they dont qiva fuck, nd there soo rude!! anyways...
now to boys 4 the wkend, sooo funny, i love how some want to tlk sisters cousins nieces and all, and then lie about it. wow, qetta qrip. then i love the ones that wanna talk to yu, nd they tlk to sum1 else and try to say they dont, so they wanna act lik they dont kno yu wen yall all qet toqether.. hahaha! well neither of them are any concern of mine, so really keep it movinq..yu jus playinq yurself!!
soo toniqht im tryinq do a few thangs, havent made up my mind yet, but b sure to qet a update tomoro!! im outtie for now
soo im back.. this is one of my favorite christmas gifts i recieved this christmas. I was bored at work this morning, so of course i love taken pics, so y not take pics of 2 of a girls favorite thangs, diamonds n dooney && burke!!! yep yep, its two of mine!!
Hey,
